Cry

Have you ever just wanted to cry 
Just to let the tears flow and not ask why 
Almost like you need to just let loose and get everything out 
Nothing in your life is going right and each day brings more doubt 
I just wana cry, just to clear my mind 
Seems as though these repressed tears are flooding within in me over time 
Held in the pain for so long nothing else remains 
Ive bin building this wall which slowly entrapped my pain 
To the outside world they see a smiling face they trust 
But when I look in the mirror I can’t look myself in the eye without feeling disgust 
This pain has taken me over to the point where I don’t wanna try 
Pain is what I know how to deal with 
Pain is what drives my ever decision, drives my ever breath 
I only have 1 question that I can’t stop asking everyday 
When did this pain start, when did my life turn this way 
I remember when I could smile from my heart 
Back in those days when life wasn’t so hard 
I hate that im writing this right now 
It only confirms in the court of life I keep putting myself on trial 
So I don’t know why I can’t just unleash this pain 
But im afraid if I don’t soon this pain will take the internal being, hearts, soul, and mind 
Sitting here alone I know what I have to do to start new 
Sit back and reflect on everything that went wrong 
Then let the tears flow and stop listening to these slow songs 
So I guess ima have to finish this thought on a sad note 
Sad as it is this grown man just needs to cry…..