Was it the Right Choice

I don’t know if I’m surprised or disappointed that i find myself asking this question 
Because at the time a break up seemed like the logical selection 
I thought i was over her and could finally move on 
But just a simple text saying "hey" makes me want her to come home 
Sure theres other girls that have sparked my interest 
Yet as i inch closer to these relationships it feels like the previous one never ended 
I kept telling myself that it would all turn out the right way 
But now I’m coming to realize that maybe she was my night and day 
People around me told me this feeling was only temporary 
They said that everyone goes through it, moves on, and starts to write a new story 
So if this is the case then why am I still writing this same damn book? 
Could have sworn i was done, had this story published and ready for an editors look 
But as I flip through the chapters something seems not quite right 
I left this story with a cliffhanger when i made that choice that night 
I’m not saying i want things to go back to the way they were 
But at the same time life seems so much damn harder without her 
I don’t know what I want anymore; I just don’t know where to turn 
But in the long run i guess it’s all just lessons learned 
They say that time heals all wounds, but what advice is there for internal bleeding 
Until I figure it out i guess I’m a just gonna have to keep proofreading 
I heard a quote the other day that i would like to share 
"You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams" 
So maybe this is the reason I sleep for days on end without a care 
Because only in my dreams do I see what i truly want in my life 
So you tell me...is it still you? Or is this just the next shock to my heart with a knife 
I guess I’m just not use to it all yet 
But this whole thing is making me a wreak 
As for now I’ll leave my writing to stand as my voice 
But I still need answers...was it the right choice?