Death

As i near the 20th year it feels like ive done so much yet nothing at all
Because no matter what i think ive achieved it dont mean shit, would i be remembered if i fall?
Crazy thing to think about but i know it goes through your mind
If it was suddenly your day to go did you just waste all your time?
Because personally i wont even front im scared to die...i think...
As much faith as i have you still cant really know whats waiting on the other side
People always say that we're young and got lots of life to live
Thats straight bullshit, tell that to all these crying mothers losing their kids
Jehru's funeral was a bittersweet site to see
Loved 1's and friends lined the streets to mourn, would it be like that for me?
People never get the flowers when they can still smell them
Fuck the flowers i just wanna know im in the hearts of the people who send them
But when i think about death only 2 people come to mind
I refuse to have my parents bury me, couldn't stand to see them crying
My dad realized i would be 20 next month and it brought him to tears
You see my brother Omar died older by just 1 year
So to leave my Dad with 41 years of his sons memory drenched in tears is something i couldn't bare
Dying, something that i obviously dont want but simple dying is something im not scared to see
But what terrifies me is the thought of people not remembering me
But death is something that we all know is a givin
So in the mean time remember this, your not really alive unless your livin