Selfish

Im not sure what this feeling is and why its hit me now
Everything is happening around me but it feels like im off stage, already took my final bow
I now sit in the audience, anticipating the next scene
In a way it almost feels like an uncontrolable dream
Nothing seems real and fantacy is the new law
But unlike a true dream i cant control anything at all
Whats worse is that this time i dont even want to help
Feels like something is wrong, but does that make me selfish for not including self?
Or maybe this is a good thing in the long run
Maybe for once im finally looking out for #1
In the past i would hop in and give my 2cents
But now that i think about it, it all just wasnt my biz
So maybe what im trying to say is i apoligize
It was my nature to get involved but from now on i only use my ears and eyes
As i was trying to fix everyones life, mine was crumbling in front of me
My life right now is in turmoil and i just wanna be free
Personal problems are going in and out of mind
Yet i havent taken the time to fix these problems and get out this time
I think i pushed away the 1 person who really cared
But while this was going on i was 2 busy caring about a relationship that of which my heart had no share
So this is my new feeling that i finally figured out 2day
Im selfish and its for the better that i remain that way