Lonely

Not quite sure how to start or even if anyone will read
But lately the only feeling I have is being lonely
Yes I have my friends and girls I flirt with from time to time
Yet I still feel like something just isn't right, no one to call mine
I kept thinking day to day that I had found that special girl
But as the days passed these girls just brought more grief to my world
I’ve started not to care and just accept life as it comes
Maybe happiness just isn’t for me and for me there isn’t that 1
As I walk around each day nobody can even tell
But on the inside my mind and heart are going hand in hand through hell
When, if there is a when will this girl of mine appear?
And when she does, if she does will I even still care?
The single life ill admit was fun at first
But only until the adrenaline wears off and you realize your still hurt
I’m not saying a long term relationship is what I really want, honestly long term I don’t think I could bare
All I want is for that certain someone, whoever she is, to simply just be there
Tired of being lonely